the mood of the day

Assalamualakum semua..

today, kan share something yg going on this few days.. si kawan kami or should i call it as si besfren kami sampai ke tanah air sudah, think she stil jetleg usulnya mun awal ani tidur nd tangah2 mlam bangun masih.. cant wait to get all my things from her *wink wink* haha! kdding, yg pentingnya ia balek and can spend much time sooner with her..

sooner, my hubby kan alek, offshore, kraja.. so, there are few more days to go, so i better use the time very well, spend the precious time with him and the kids too! now, its raining outside, macam faham2 saja ujan atu! anyway, nda sabar rasanya kan spend time with dearest friends jua lah, rindu sangat2,but unfortunately, laki kami2 di darat except for -Na saja yg nada hubby haha so, enjoy life while u stil can dear! single and available, anyone in the line? *haha*

banar tah the weather today makes me feel so lazy and down saja.. but watever it is, besyukur jua lah kana turun kan ujan, inda jua panas banar dluar atu..sooner my niece start school and lil danish (BB's soon) too.. welcome to school's life youngster! and it means BB will be back to work jua.. no more hols hols hols nie ah :) welcome back to work, friend!! cant wait to meet u up!! and u all! u know who u are..

i lose weight again, which is not good, i should gain wa gain more and more weight.. is it because of the stress, but am i stress? i dont know.. just dont know. all i can say, "Allah, be with me always, i need You more than i need sapa2" pray and keep on praying in order to get a better meaningful happy life.. im just normal human being with heart, feeling, mind and soul.. i just hope my 2009 will be a great joy and life, i hope! a big HOPE is there..

anyhoo, these are some pictures of me last year during my birthday with dear friends Lena, BB and -Na, and my daughters were there too.. thank you for the surprise.. and if u notice my cake, ada kana wrote "Ms ervina" Ms? sejak bila title ku tukar balik ke Ms? haha! typo kali he baker haha!

and this year, -Na threw a surprise on me, she came to my house andwe celebrate it with a slice of cake, i think i did mention abt this arah post before2 so, just to refresh saja.. thanks once again -Na, such a wonderful night from u and ur fren, Tini.

today, my hubby bawa makan2 or should i say food hunting kah.. hehe, trying to gain weight usulnya nie ah.. but, we'll see how my weight atu naik or inda in few days :p

sometimes, i feel like i want to stand in the public and shout out very loud, telling people that im exist here to give the love and to receive the so called "hates".. and yet, i cant, i just cant.. but watever it is, im happy with who i am right now, happy to have everyone around me at least i know im not and will never be alone..

anyhoo, im leaving u all with the pictures down here..thanks to -Na for editing the lovely pictures..





and oh, there are few sentence i got from -Na..

"live life like there is no tomoro"
"its better to throw the broken glass rather than fixing it, ur finger surely, bleeding"
"forget things that hurt u the most and think what u deserve the most"
"love yourself then u can love others"
"dont push urself dat much as it kills u in the end"

bah bah out!

New year and today :)

as you all can see the picture above, yes New year just in few hours nie ah.. kinda takut, excited, happy, sad and all blend in one juice eseh apakan! mcm mix fruit juice lah ah kirannya mood today..

well, today mood kinda swing jua lah, suppose we celebrate new year di empire, dearest hubby plan to bring us there but sadly my girls are sick, high fever and so, we have to cancel it. well, watever it is, im stil happy that my family are around me new year ani :) tho the girls are sick, stil im happy once again celebrating new year with them and hubby :)

hmm, today noting much kan d buat.. or should i say er i dont know what to do!!

2009, i hope everything going to be fine and happy.. i want my gals growing happily ever after and i want my husband to give me more and more love and happiness.. or should i say, i want all of them to give the love that i want as they are my everything in my life. i dont think i can stand like right now without them next to me.. im so ready to leave 2008 and not so ready to live in 2009 actually.. 2008 byk lah kenangan yg terindah, masin, manis, masam, garam, gula, kicap smua lah campur2 macam rojak mix with cendol.. (nah lapar tia and tayis liur)

apa lagi ah kan di cakap kan? blank jua la and blur tapi jari ani mau menayip saja.. so, antam saja lah ah apa yg pop in my mind.. laparrrrrrr sangat2! ah ah si kawan kami esok alek hehe.. welcome home dearest friend!! cant wait to see you, tapi bnrnya cant wait to see the thingys dat u bought for me, HAHA kidding aleng!! miss the old days spending with you pren *bb* and and inda ketinggalan -Na!! haha! rindu kan tidur sekatil ampit2 tane2 ah! rindu kan tulak2 arah katil dalam selimut haha! muat jua lah ah for all of us in one king size bed d rizqun ah! nanti2 tah lagi :)

oh si danish soon kan cekolah nie ah, di mana? "sin jim"? haha.. kiot! welcome to school's life LiL Danish! supaya inda confuse, Danish anak si BB hee..

hmmm.. now, one of my gals mengusut.. kesian jua eh~ ani kan di bawa kali for new year celebration? kesian kesian :(

more pictures of the family coming soon yea :) lagging sikit server..

im back :)

sorry, didnt update that regularly here. been quite busy tho..

oh, just want to share to everyone that, i was having a wonderful day on my birthday.. ada surprise from my beloved hubby and received pressie as well :) and oh glad, and happy received a surprise from -Na a night before my birthday, datang kerumah bawa slice of cake and a candle with her fren along. thank you :) appreciate it! and i likeee~ yummy yummy.. photo? nanti tah mengupload hee..

today, i feel lil bit bored jua lah, and kesian my LiL gal damam and therefore, inda jadi attend the wedding.. stay at home saja lah spending time with dearest family..

and, ada jua lah mood swing.. and stil memajal si -Na supaya ia balek kb (HMPH!!)haha.. if balek, kerumah ah~ :)

counting days nie nunggu si bestfren balek from Berlin, bukan plg wait ia, wait barang2 yg di buy nya.. haha Kidding, ofcohz lah nunnggu ia, missing her so bad eh, but neway, as long as ia happy ah ah on vacation with dearest husband and children.

right now, im wondering why life is so boring sometimes, when i cant do anything right as in when i dont know wat to do to make everything fun! and also, wondering where my beloved husband will bring me out later, hee yea, looking forward for that deary! and sometimes, i do feel bored as ive nothing to do staying at home with my kids, its not dat im bored or wat with my kids, its just dat, i miss to my thing as in working, hang out with my mom and so on.. well, i do have fun with kids around and husband as well, its just dat, im just normal human being. i do think of getting a job again, go for work again, i miss having a job.. i hope just hope my skills wont ilang cmatu saja pasalnya batah sudah inda keraja. i HOPE! and plus, i want to work because i want to feel my own money lagi, nyaman rasanya makai duit sendiri untuk anak and laki, its not dat inda cukup or what, i do receive more than enough from dearest husband, its just that i feel mcm u know rasa as a mother kan mau bagi something dgn titik peluhnya untuk keluarganya? thats how i feel, mcm i want to do something and to give something for my kids and husband with my own sweat!

im still thinking on what i should do to make people surround me proud of me and happy of having me in their life.. i dont want to be such a loser, pathetic type of person.. i just want to stand up for myself and keep the happiness flowing btw my kids, husband and the rest of my family&friends. and yet, im still wondering, can i?

eh macam sedih jua this posting.. hehe sorry, terikut perasaan bah ni. but overall, yes, im happy with the love that flows from you sayang (hubby).. thanks for the support as well! and to my kids, thank you for giving the love and care although we always ada lips fight hee when sometimes i enjoyed debating with both of you, thats the funny and joy part of us. weird? well, thats hapen always between a mother and children, right? im glad to have them, i just inda dapat stop saying how glad and hapy i am by having my loving husband and daughters in my life, cheering my self up, making me smile and laugh! well, i believe jua lah ups and down in life and marriage and family.. nothing is perfect and therefore, life is not and wont be perfect! sometimes we cant get something dat we wised, dreamt about and hoped! but i do believe, life sumtyms di bawah and sumtyms di atas.. life is like a wheel! hence, live life like there is no tomoro :)

to those yang sad sad and heartbroken apa, cheer up, life is karma, motivate urself in order to move on, and listen to this, "dont try to fix the broken glass, instead, go and buy a new glass" think, wat if u fix the broken glass? bedarah jua jari atu kan? so therefore, u will feel the pain and hurt saja in the end. move on is the key towards the happiness.. Allah is always there to listen.. now inda happy.. im sure sooner or later, there will be happiness jua in the end as wat i was saying before, life is karma :) and Allah is fair.. be happy always tho u have to pretend cos sumtyms by pretending can make u forget all the sadness in ur life. be strong and brave person. dont let the negative atu conquer urself and mind.. u will end up ur life mcm er nowhere! everyone wants a happyending, and so do i.. i just cant wait and wont stop praying for that although im happy enough now, and im scared of losing my happiness :(

alright, till here for now, kalau boring g later, i will type some more, lastly, hubby, i love you so so much, thanks for being there for me dear.. i need you for now and then.. and my two lovely daughters, i love you and nothing can change that sayang... huggies and kisses for all of you as always..

much love from me.. :) have a nice sunday-day people :)

a day for me..

Assalamualaikum..

Today, nothing much.. i dont know what to do.. (well, ofcourse i do my daily routine with the kids and husband who just came back home yesterday) right now, im feeling like missing my bestfriend who is currently in Berlin, Germany. Cant wait jua lah ia balek.. which is er, Next week? wadduh~.. anyhoo, have a great hols, friend!

apart from that, im feeling happy as well, my hubby alek yesterday, inda jua keboringan :) and yes, life is so wonderful with them (husband and my two lovely daughters) around me.. Loving you all :)

oh, thanks to the bestie for the "ole2" from Berlin, and thanks to my in-law and wife for the "ole2" from KL.. appreciate it, terima kasih terima kasih.. :)

more over, yeeheeeee esok will be my biggy2 day :) .. my birthday, and yet, i dont know where to celebrate or am i celebrating it this year? hopefully, this year will be a blast birthday as in Day for me.. amin! yang ke berapa? ehe inda tah payah di mention, women hate when it comes to this so called "age" and hence, i wont state the NUMBERS ahah.. well, sometimes, when i think of the day, it reminds me of my birthday surprise by the friends time d rizqun :) it was "wuhuuu" but sadly, hubby wasnt there with me, but glad, the galfies were around :) thanks once again! and for this year birthday, wic is tomoro, er i dont know whetha celebrate kah inda.. or dinner or lunch or breakfast outing on that day or what.. we'll see.. i just wait and see sajalah ah.. but hopefully everything will be okay :) well, by spending my time with dearest family on my birthday atu pun more than enough.. looking at them laughing together with the love around atu pun im glad and happy :) wonderful present tue ah with them around :)



okay, apa lagi kan di share here? im quite blank plg, oh, about the hotel626 game, uhu, it looks siok and they use real people in the game and when i youtube-ing it, GOSH! it looks so scary, and sadly the site opens from 6pm to 6am saja :s and i dont know how to change the clock arah Mac ani.. anyone? help!

anyhoo, im leaving u guys till here lah dulu alright.. feeling so sleepy eh today.. talk again real soon!

take a look at my pretty daughters :)

Meet my LiL AlisYa

..Meet the Sisters; Batrisya and AlisYa..

such a boring day..

readers!!!

just mau share with kamu2, below are some pictures of my daily life :)..



This is when my friends threw a surprise birthday celebration in Rizqun hotel.. tapi buring jua lah as my hubby di laut.. he wasn't there but anyway, glad that my friends are there cheering me up :) Thank you Kamu Kamu..

will update again sooner..